Rushalité

Could have gotten the same rush
     from any lover's touch

I walked into a clubhouse, not far off a very beaten path. When I walked in, I mentally asked if I could eat a kiwi here, and no one replied, so I went to the kitchen and tried to find a knife (to slice the kiwi fruit in half) and after this had happened, I found myself at a circular desk slicing a lime in two, wondering what had happened to the kiwi.

Turns out I'm not bad at writing about stuff that happened... I love that I know so much about Cannabis.

The Power of the Internet

In a world filled with strife, I see robotics and the internet in a mostly positive light.

Technology has always been the human race's strongpoint; its anti-Achille's heel. Homo sapiens, homo erectus, homo habilis - you name it; the homos are simply good at creating, maintaining, and advancing technology. My favourites include writing, knives, fire, and robotics. Oh, and cooking too! All technological

Technology is dangerously close to nature, firstly because it has no choice but to be a part of nature, but more importantly because it is almost advancing ahead of us. Nature, however, is absolutely always advancing ahead simply because that's what Gaia thinks is a good idea.


To be continued..

Free writing mixed with some editing

So Google - Google Opinion Rewards to be more precise, is asking me a lot of questions today. It's probably a coincidence that I was sitting in the APUS' (Association of Part-time Undergraduate Students) office filling out paperwork when Google decided to prompt me with a benign demographic question: "What category of student are you?" - can you guess what I answered?

Tao Inspired

"Feel the lightness of being that results from forgiving others and accepting them as they are.
Free yourself of the endless vigil of policing the behavior of others.
See them for who they are, not what they can or can't do for you. "

From the Book of Changes - Hexagram 40.

Angel divine

Michel/le - She can protect me
Raphael/le - She can heal me
Me - I can protect Raphael/le y/or Michel/le

2019-09 update: Changed the names to make them genderless, tried my hand at spanish and elementary particles

Boil-ology (I'm making tea after losing my Mighty)

Homo sapiens, not homo socialis.

 Homo habilis, très habile

 

Lights is still around and kickin' :)

Updated draft on a Tuesday: J'aime siffler.

Neutrinality

One neutrino made it out; that's the last thing I remember, before... before the onslaught hugged him too tight such that he fell backwards into one of the many voids that afflicts this metropolis. Of the voids, there isn't much to say other than some zombies probably could live there for a while.

If I had to pick a moment in time where I might have made it out without relying on externalizations, that moment would be now. For, like a benzene molecule in perpetual motion, I have got - another girl. Another girl who will love me 'till the end. Through thick and thin, she will always be my friend.

Hi A.M.! I hope you like The Beatles! :D

Black Tuna-

Beautiful is a song by Scatterheart, yes, and I've actually met, talked, and even taken a few different yoga classes with the lead singer. He told me he might put on his wings again for my birthday; but this was so long ago that I would not hold them to it.

Majestic and poisonous

I started my day by picking a card; treading is what was given to me, so tread I tried to do.

Was I cautious? I certainly feel like I was, since I decided to bike home by renting a BikeShare bike and pedaled, pedaled I did on mostly watery roads illuminated by the harsh glow of endless cars. It was a fun ride home, in different words.

The highlight of my week is attending all my classes - I'm finally doing science again. I'm picking up almost where I left off, oh, say, almost 12 years ago now, which would have been the last time I was in IB and taking science. And indeed, this was a time when I was blogging furiously and emotionally, and I'm getting back into that.

I don't want to be sucked into a scientific hell where I see the world through the lens of pure numbers and molecules, so I decided to check out A Farewell to Arms from the St. Michael's Library. I've read it in French before, and I thought it was a terrific story. You really get to feel the emotions of the characters that Hemingway writes about, and the imagery almost rivals Tolkien's. I can't wait to read it in its original form!

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I still feel lonely, even more so on campus. I don't look anyone in the eye anymore. I think it's too painful. My iron heart keeps beating, and my carbonated lungs process the toxicating smog that I regrettably inhale each day. For how much longer will the poison spread?

Mad Libs @ Stella's

There; without a plot, a human being is like a tiger lost in High Park. Predictably, taking a hike is something that doth not happen often - that is, unless you're into twisted paths that creep into dark voids.

Arguing for the sake of arguing is called rhetoric.

Canadiana is sold everywhere in this god-forsaken city. I would not be surprised if Vancouver had it worse, considering the considerable amount of trade routes.

Sunny days ahead, especially after February 5th.

The Robartic Triangle Conundrum cont.

Once again, if you whisper things to me; I am more than likely not going to reply to you and in fact, you are making me angrier. So maybe instead of acting like idiot psychologists, try and look up the word ETHICS and EMPATHY first. The amount of people who tell me to "smile" and simply the words "sorry" is unreal. It's happened to me so many times at this point that I am definitely not surprised; I am saddened.

Why am I saddened? Because so many people here should NOT be here. They smoke, they litter, they eat GARBAGE (so I don't blame them), but the fact that they're polluting Gaia is CLEARLY an issue. Who does this stuff? It's the tragedy of the commons.

Fellow U of T ex-smokers, you're cool. Ex-vapers, even more so. That shit is SCARY if you don't know what you're doing. Oil = mulefas from Lyra's realm.

And some random quotes I said today:
"What, like a $300/$500/$1000 dollar suit?" - Parodying Job from Arrested Development

"MOOOOOOVEU" - Non-sexual double-entendre: I invest in Micron, the semi-conductor company, and I also care about physicality. Kinda confusing, but bear with me. MoveU is a service provided to U of T students; but it's also an encouragement; honestly, it's something I don't know too much about but it has to do with animals such as cows.

"STOP SMOKING - ARE YOU GUYS HOMICIDAL OR WHAT"? Paraphrased

"Back to work!" Random thing I say to myself to keep persevering.

Perseverance: two ways to pronounce it - "purr-sever-anse" or "purr-sir-veer-ehnce".

™ =  Hold Alt -> on the numpad, press 0153. That's if you want to trademark something, which apparently is some sort of rite of passage at this god-forsaken university.

I can't hold a fork; oh noes.

So much random inspiration; no one gives a shit about this blog except Blogger + Google, and some friends of old.

Conflight

A man took my spot on a badminton court today.

When I tried to explain to him that I was taking a one minute break in-between games whilst my mixed partner warmed up, he told me to "lose your attitude". I looked at him quizzically, and decided that he was not worth my time.

I, as calmly as I could, rose up from the bench I was sitting and walked to my other spot, on the benches at a far court. Whilst gathering my bearings, he continued to yell at me.

I could have yelled at him. Had I been a more violent person by nature, I might even have punched him for being so rude, inconsiderate, and downright mean. Instead, I tried to play a game with better people. I won that game; but the fun was gone, so I left and did my best to amble back home.

The subways were down, and I walked through the crowds of brightened people hurrying to catch a shuttle bus South or North while I made my way into the Loblaws to purchase an assortment of products that I probably paid too much for and that I definitely did not need.

Thus ends my story about my productive day.

Oh, and I made cricket/mushroom/fish soup.

+25 points to English Literature

"He was her servant for life." - Philip Pullman, as cited in "The Book of Dust".

Now to go check out something about rubies...

Losing track of the track

I'm going to cancel the opportunity to write the tile that indicates that I am free writing. Why complicated things when you can simplify things... is what a politician and a mathematician would say.

The blank page; not the Front Page, as so cleverly enunciated by Rick Mercer.
What happened to the CBC, anyway? Anytime I tune into that show, it's always NEVER current. Probably because they make terrible financial decisions. And those decisions are the same they were making 10 years ago? I think not.

The reasoning behind all this is that by cutting media funding, the Harper government took away the tools from the workers, which prevented them from adequately defending themselves from the tools that are not so commonplace but far more dangerous.

Again, the reason I continue to write is because I've rationalized that it's far more efficient for me to write things on a screen (at least, creatively speaking - good luck using Blogger to do your Chem homework!).

Yours truly,
GH

Stella & Pikachu

Today, I headed down to Robarts Library and tried to print my course syllabus for Organic Chemistry. The first computer I tried would not open the pdf file, so I had to scoot over to the second one; they're all in rows, and while most of them are at sit-down desks, the one I used was a stand-up.

So I sent the syllabus to the printer, but when I got to the printer, there was a sign saying that my card was no longer valid and I would have to upgrade to a new U of T card to access the funds on it to print.

Anyway, long story short, I'll print my syllabus tomorrow.

I then headed to Stella's Place with my brand new Diablo scarf that I had ordered previously and received in the mail yesterday, and when I arrived... the studio activity for the week was finger-knitting a scarf. So I started to finger-knit a scarf, but I quickly realized what a futile effort it would be to create something I had no need of. So with help from one of the facilitators, I finger-knit a cozy-thing for my Nintendo Switch.

Speaking of which, I'm excited to eventually play this game:

I'm not sure when I'll open it. I really should open it; I don't want to have too stressful of a semester.
It's getting really late and I have class tomorrow. I'm content with how easy it was to write all these words. Took me less than 10 minutes. Wow.

It feels good to feel alive again.

Typo checkup on 2024-03-16.

Arthurian message

Considering how gloomy my last post was... this cheers me up.

A laugh of despair

Gliding through the effervescent blinding light of the Dark Forest, I feel warm tears slowly dissolve into icicle trinkets that hang from my shocked eyes.

I saw Orion, the hunter today. He is as bright as ever. And I hate to use this word, because I despise it, because it is entirely true, that I am grateful that I can still see stars at night. I can even make out constellations. In the middle of a city.

In the middle, there was nothing but energies swirling around me. And I can't see. I can't see because the icicles melted away to be replaced by poisonous particles that exist because of the cancerous plague we've unleashed as a species.

So I laughed. I laughed a twisted cry of mercy, and the laugh was almost inhuman that I had no choice but to cry. So cry I did, for a fleeting moment, until the photons hurt me once more.

X-rays have nothing on the radiation... the radiation that perversely invades every soul caught in this City of Blinding Lights.

GBS & HW + Env't = Faith

George Bernard Shaw wrote: "Life is no brief candle for me. It is a sort of splendid torch which I have got hold of for the moment, and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations."

This mixes well with what Hayley Williams sings in Last Hope: "It's just a spark, but it's enough to keep me going. And when it's dark out and no one's around it keeps glowing."

As an environmentalist, the worst part of it is that too many people still drive SUVs solo everywhere in this dead water city. My worry is that what kids will be breathing in 50 years will not just be smog, but something more akin to smog-haze-sludge because of human irresponsibility.

In other news, I'm taking a 1st year chemistry course this semester at the best university in Canada. Wow!

Getting more typical, nightly

Too many things appear as if out of thin air. They do not exist but in my mind, and maybe in yours now too. Until I write things down, the many-things-in-the-air are just there waiting to be flaired.

Yesterday, I met someone named R. at an internet café near my place. He's also a UofT student and he hails from Seoul, and he clarified with me that Seoul was indeed in the southern part of South Korea.

Naturally, our conversation drifted to Starcraft, and although we didn't discuss strategies, he did invite me back next week. Considering he works there, it makes sense that he would want my business, but separate from the business aspect, he also seems like a cool dude. He went to the same college at UofT that I went to previously, as well.

Prior to meeting R., I also met someone named J. at a bar. She was a waitress there, and she was easy to talk to. We talked about music and jukeboxes, and she was not aware that there was a song named after her by the Allman Brothers Band.

Now I'm off to go play Overwatch at a gaming café in koreatown! It's looking like it might be my new favourite (Blizzard) game!

Wandering Minds

I find it a lot easier to write about random things that happen throughout my day rather than plotting out a detailed summary of the important things that happened.
I feel like a writer without a plot, and a plot is nothing more than a conspiracy, is it not?
Writing inspiration comes from events that make sense. Events that make no sense are just paradoxes.
The paradox of the matter is that it's cool to write things about the anti-establishment when writing about the corporation is far easier.
Losing myself in my verb tenses, I finish this blog post with a heartfelt hello to an old, old friend.
H-l-, but I think he probably prefers to be called E-a-.

Living in an ocean of confusion

It's ten o' three in the morning and all I can think about is Paramore again.
I know Lyra is coming back to visit me soon, if she isn't here already.
I feel all over the place and music is making things better

These are lyrics from Pool by Paramore. The way Hayley sings this part makes me sadhappy.

As if the first blood didn't thrill enough
I went further out to see what else was left of us
Never found the deep end of our little ocean
Drain the fantasy of you
Headfirst into shallow pools

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Today is boxing day. I don't really feel like spending money. Really, the only thing I want is either music or Nintendo Switch accessories. Maybe I'll pick something up for that, but otherwise, I'm saving.

I'm excited for UofT to open up again. There's nothing to do!

I am against CICO madness

[–]NickleNackle   [S] 1 point 1 year ago 

What are the main reasons that grains are unhealthy?

[–]Meto_Kaiba 1 point 1 year ago 

Hmm. Off the top of my head:

1. Grains are full of bad proteins; meaning, they evolved protection mechanisms to NOT get eaten. We've circumvented these mechanisms through various processing methods, from mechanical or artificial, to fermentation (which is fairly healthy, but still not ideal).
2. Grains are notoriously difficult to digest because of these proteins and anti-nutrients.
3. Most of the "big" grains today (corn, soy, wheat etc.) have been genetically modified to be grown effortlessly and in mass quantities - but at a cost of taste, biodiversity, and fair wages.
4. Grains affect bodily functions quite severely, e.g. soy being an estrogen replacer (if I remember correctly). This has led to the rise of auto-immune disease (there's a correlation there).

When it comes to your personal health, it's best to do your own careful research whenever possible.
Out of the list that /u/andrewmhunt mentioned, I'd recommend picking one and trying to get through it bit by it. I really like Mark's Daily Apple as he breaks down the information in an easy-to-digest way (pun intended).

How do you destroy something that was created, literally?

Answer:

The Remembrance of Earth's Past Trilogy

地球往事

Sharing some not-so-valuable info

Today I walked to Lawrence Square.
Then I took a subway to Yorkdale.
I purchased a small A&W root beer full of HFCS (High Fructose Corn Syrup).
I purchased a small lavender & basil scented soap.
And then I walked home.
Great exercise!

Sharing some valuable info

"Using your abs to move heavy weight a few inches is just weird." - Mark Sisson

One of my favourite fitness authors writes about how doing crunches and stuff is pretty pointless. Figured that out years ago, but it's hard to go against the grain.

Thesis 1: There won't be a White Christmas...

... because the condos generate too much heat.

GH

A party song I listened to today

If only girls bought us drinks instead, huh? How's that for a new norm?

Job loss

I feel it's appropriate for me to write a post about what happened.

I don't want to name them because bashing previous employers usually doesn't end well for the employee, but if you've been following my blog for the past few months you should know which company fired me. For me, it is the company that I will forever remember as the one that let me go the day I was supposed to become a permanent salaried employee.

It would be a lie to say that I'm not angry at them for firing me, especially considering that my direct supervisors never told me I was doing a bad job etc.
I bear no ill will towards the corporation, although I now certainly do have an additional reason not to love capitalism.

I will miss the friendly relationships I built with my coworkers on the client care team. I will not miss the interdepartmental tomfoolery, nor will I miss all the weed & paraphernalia. I (and my sister) will most definitely miss the staff parties.

So, do I go back to school? Or maybe I should try working in a completely different environment like a yoga studio, part time? The corporate life was fun, but I think I want something more down to earth.

I really don't want to be a french tutor, mais si ça paye les factures, peut-être devrais-je commencer ma petite entreprise franco. Je ne suis vraiment pas qualifié pour enseigner la grammaire. À vrai dire, je serais surpris si il n'y avais pas d'erreure de grammaire dans ce paragraphe. Non, c'est plûtot mon vocabulaire français que je peux facilement enseigner. Le. La. Pas compliqué pour moi, pas mal compliqué pour les anglos et les autres personnes qui parlent des langues sans gendre.

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I said I'd make an effort to add more multimedia to my blog, so here's a picture of Rudolph I half-assed coloured over the weekend:

Best quote I've read in a decade

"Each friend represents a world in us, a world not born until they arrive" - Anais Nin

Darkness I crave; light I seek.

I feel like fading to dust.


My heart is still there, buried beneath layers of rusted armor.

Locked inside.

With a million different keys.

And only one I wish to set them all free.

You don't have to _____ if you don't want to

 

It took a long-ass time for me to enjoy Paramore's latest album. Over a year, in fact. It's growing on me.

Kind graffiti

It's always nice when you find uplifting graffiti.

Tuques and beanies

On my downtime at work I was browsing our merchandise shop when I came across what was clearly a tuque being labelled as a beanie.

I don't know if you know the history of the tuque (and I'm not about to lecture you), but it's pretty much a staple of Canadian culture. When it gets cold, people wear tuques. Now, you can argue about the spelling of the word toque, but in the end, we're all just looking to keep our noggin' warm.
Here is my tuque. I don't know why it's sideways, but it'll have to do.

 So when someone calls a tuque a beanie, well, I boil on the inside. I decided to take a poll amongst my coworkers: I showed them the hat above, and asked them "How would you describe this hat?". All six of them unequivocally said it was a "tuque", with 2 people calling it a "winter hat" before clarifying. I'll take a picture of that poll for due diligence and post it below when I get the chance.

As you can tell, I'm pretty particular about my data. The poll was informal, but the results were real: don't call a tuque a beanie! It is frankly, insulting.

Thank you for listening to my rant. Have a good day.

CBDiablo

I thought I saw some snowflakes falling today but it seems the sun chased them away.

I had a busy week. Lots of new releases came out, so a lot of people were eager to order. And boy did some people place big orders - 6 bottles of CBD here, 60 grams of Blue Dream there, no big deal. Except it was a big deal because many people had been waiting weeks to get their hands on out-of-stock product. And within 2 days, the CBD oil was gone again.

Anyway, just a glimpse of what my work life is like.
In other news, I got a Nintendo Switch - Diablo edition! Holy fizzlebangs it is SO awesome. I've never owned a console in my life (aside from gameboys) and it is the pinnacle of entertainment to be able to sit sprawled out on a futon and play incredibly fun games. If you're reading this and you have a Switch, hit me uppp!

I'm on the hunt for a concert to go to. I know it's not typically how that works, but I realized the other day I hadn't seen any music I liked live in a while. I should probably go to something different than Paramore for a change, but if they're in town... well, it's always a good time. Oh, and I did see Kardinal Offishall at a private event with Aurora the other day, that was neat.

That's it for now!

Autumn skookum

Crimson earth, magenta sky
One of the above is not a lie

Costume partay

Working at Aurora, I get access to a lot of cool events, usually things that Aurora has sponsored. One such event happened last week with the "Boombox" costume party at Bell TIFF Lightbox. I was given some VIP passes to go and I had a pretty good time. I wore a wig, so at least I had something to wear.

It was a large venue, with a few different themed rooms. On entering, you had to go through some haunted house-like creepy areas with scary sounds. But the main stage (with an open bar nearby) had a band playing some 80s tunes throughout the night. Servers were handing out bad appetizers, mostly mushroom based.

When I went upstairs, I found there was a VIP section only for Aurora employees, so I got some comfortable couches to sit on and sipped on a cider for the rest of the night.

Pigeons know the cold is coming

Finding refuge near the CN tower

Happy Legalization Day!

I almost forgot to make a blog post today, but I wouldn't miss such a historic event!
So yeah, I work for Aurora now and it is EXCITING being part of the whole legalization process!

I noticed the typo but did nothing to fix it because my shift was up

Plus ça change, plus ça reste la même chose

I realized coming into this blog post that I wanted to write just like I have all the other times in the past; that is, mostly stream of consciousness and submit. And there's nothing really stopping me from continuing with that tradition, except that I said I would try to shake things up. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that each blog post is unique in and of itself. Why else would I have the "kaleidoughwheel of destiny" on the side to click on? Each blog post has to be able to stand on its own for me to even publish it.

What I can probably do is update the layout. I've never actually given it much thought: once in a while, I switch the theme up a bit to something that I think looks cool, and I kind of set it and forget it. I think I would have to take a look at what modern layouts are like from other personal blogs and update it to something that's on trend. Otherwise, I run the risk of ending up like what an oldschool 90s website looks like to us. I must say that old school internet, as I call it, has its charm, with its easily clickable HTML links and relatively straightforward navigation.
I would definitely say that I'm starting to fall behind current internet trends when compared to say, 12 years ago when trolling was still a delicate but worthwhile art form. Nowadays, I spend way too much time on Reddit and although I do find a lot of interesting things and have some good exchanges once in a while, I still feel like I'm filling my head up with too much junk.

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It's been a good week. I finally got my taxes done and out of the way, so until next year I guess. Work is still great. I'll keep the mystery of my employment until another blog post, since I see myself working here for a while.