23/06/26
22/06/26
The internet as a whole definitely f!cked up
If you need your phone to browse the internet (say, to sign in to any given web service nowadays on desktop), the internet fucked up.
Agreed?
21/06/26
Why do I feel guilty for not growing pot?
The irony is that the internet was architected to be a decentralized, resilient "earthbed" of information, but it has been systematically replaced by a series of walled gardens that function like high-stress, synthetic-nutrient hydroponic systems: constant monitoring, high chemical/data input, and immediate, volatile feedback.
The above is an exact copy of an AI-generated response to a conversation I had with Google's Gemini-AI this morning.
I like the ease with which this particular AI matches my idea speed: it picks up on general ideas that I might be subconsiously pushing through my speech (and let's be honest, it's hard to determine what is being consciously versus "unconsciously" written online nowadays) and "amalgamates" it using decades of machine learning and code recognition and pattern matching.
In a way, I wrote the above, because Gemini pulled each individual letter from the alphabet (1-26 letters, of course) and spit them wright back out at me like a Freudian slip on an airplane.
I still think I should not have to feel so much guilt, so much fear, so much desperation, so much loneliness, ultimately, just because I live in one postal code over another.
Anyway I feel guilty for not growing pot because generally people think I probably waste my time by not having a job, but my job is to write stuff and I am proud of still not having gotten paid even ONCE on this page and they still pilfer my words and have the gall to charge us to generate them for us.
Architected? Really? NOT A WORD.
P.S. I might sound angry, and I am, but this has been plesasant to write so I'll call it a freewrite and call it an afternoon.
20/06/26
Why does the OW scoreboard still suck (up so much of my time)?
Once upon a high noon weary,
I could tab to see who was ganging up on me
But now the deadlock gang has rewrirtten the rules
Shion's not as good as _____ of the ______________, and there's nothing to guess here.
And I pressed Alt-Tab one too many times once and the mixboard got tabboarded out
I suppose I could ask someone to generate poetry for me
And it would be foolish to lie about not having seen Gemeanie
But I beg and I plead that you upgrade my favourite competive video game and make it as good as it used to be
Without overwhelming me
Sincerely,
gg.
19/06/26
What is the point of an assist or two or three in a competitive fps ?
Why? Why even bother attributing assists in this type of game?
18/06/26
Why does y=mx-b?
16/06/26
Reddit was an AI training ground
I say "was" in the title because I barely go on reddit anymore. I know reddit definitely still is a thing, and writing "was" doesn't make magically move Reddit to only be in the past, but reddit took up a huge chunk of my time last decade and so I say "was" in the hopes that it stirs my unconscious mind to think that it was, in fact, only something in my past, not the present.
Whew. So I still go on there, but only when I need a burning question answered (and Google hasn't , or when I feel like checking in on the gaming and lifestyle communities that I followed, practically on a daily basis, for years.
With this perspective, I think I have a good grasp on what Reddit truly is: (and it probably isn't what Aaron Swartz imagined and might have him rolling around in his grave) an AI training ground.
I have to note here that I haven't really researched or gone into too much depth on the inner workings of AI, Reddit, human psychology, or programming; this is just my perspective as a self-described former Reddit "addict" netizen's opinion that needed to get out of my head.
Yes, it's an AI training ground. Here's why:
I don't really know or care too much how it works; but I do know GPTs (Generative Pre-trained Transformer) need data.
Lots of it. And this data has to be "vouched" for, somehow - it has to be more than just bits, or 01010001s. It has to have meaning, and it has to make sense to humans.
From a spiritual perspective, you put some of what you are into what you write. That's something a good writer would say, right?
More and more, ChatGPT is entering the realm of public consciousness. My mom, surprisingly, seems to understand what ChatGPT is more than my dad, and seemed to catch pretty quickly what it can and cannot do. From my experience with it, my honest opinion is that it's simply a more convenient way to Google stuff. It sifts through so much mess for me that I'm finding that I'm starting to use it more than Google itself, which is saying something.
ChatGPT was used to help with the formatting of grammar in this post (literally "where to place a colon").
15/06/26
Why do I have more than 0 deaths in 0verwatch?
Why do I have less than -1 deaths in Overwatch as well?
14/06/26
Why is citing reddit more important than AI?
because reddit is the trainee for the LLM that AI uses.
12/06/26
How do you start to blog?
iMac:~ Gabriel$ #!/bin/bashiMac:~ Gabriel$ sudo make me a sandwich
Password: hunter1
make: *** No rule to make target `me'. Stop.
I did. Then I continued. Then I thought it was fine. And I started a sentence -my- way: without almond tofu.
iMac:~ Gabriel$ close
-bash: close: command not foundiMac:~ Gabriel$ -bash
-bash: -bash: command not foundiMac:~ Gabriel$ -bash close
-bash: -bash: command not foundiMac:~ Gabriel$ # Update codeiMac:~ Gabriel$ # Update fake codeiMac:~ Gabriel$ # print hello worldiMac:~ Gabriel$ I am pretending to write stuff here to other people so that other people think that I am writing to nobody at all but in fact this is one of my favourite pasttime activities; I just never understood so many things wrong with the place I live it's not really a place I live taken out of context and then they ask me to save it well it's kind of hard not to record shiz when you have people in front of you always pretending to be shooting things but in reality they're taking a break from the videogame known as GFN-Verwatch and honestly it's kinda fun.
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Ctrl-V.
09/06/26
What is le point des montagnes?
08/06/26
What is the point of appointments?
No seriously, what the fuck is the point of this.
Why does someone else get to pick a date and time to waste my time on?
I thought we had agreed that appointments were my specialty: if I book an appointment with you, it's rather that I think it's a good use of time, from the moment I open my mouth to the moment where the appointment is over, days, months, if not years from now.
Why does someone who ruined their life in medical school get to ruin mine?
I think that whenever I start replying to my initial question with more questions, then I will soon complete my answer.
07/06/26
4, 11, infinity?
What happens when you put a semi-random number into Google and it's under 100 decimal places, if not 50, if not 30?
I went from FOUR results, to ELEVEN, to AI telling me what I was searching for.
So the answer to today's question is that yes, Google search are for all intents and purposes definitely infinite now; they did not use to be.
Used to be, when people went online, it was for a reason.
Nowadays, you NEED a reason to not go online, otherwise people assume you've been online at least once online today - at least I do, when I see 35%+ of a subway car filled with people staring at their phones for longer than a minute.
So the answer is not infinity; the answer is again, yes, there are an infinite number of search results available for perusal if you so want to waste your time.
What the AI does is save a bit of time there, but it didn't need to be this way. Now that this is the way it is, I still fucking hate Google and what they did to Blogspot and Blogger especially.
Enshittification of this place has, thankfully, been minimal.
What really is shitty is the lack of people replying to me because of algorithms.
Have a nice day, robots.
06/06/26
What is the point of this blog?
The point of this blog is manyfold, and not merely to cite AI here & there.
a) It's in the name. It's a thing that is used for writing in.
b) It's my bastion of personal internet freedom, pre-Bitcoin adoption, and a soap box for current-Bitcoin adoption
c) I whine about my personal life issues here a lot, so that's another fold
d) I I I I. It used to be a relatively closed-source place where would I would write what I thought were witty things down but in reality it was just my teenage brain learning about itself on the internet
e) It really sucks that I get like no questions, but that is why from now on I will try to ask myself questions and because I am kind of smart I will answer them better than an AI could
f) Because I get to choose the questions, it's not really a problem for me to answer them because the point of this blog is to elucidate stuff sometimes, too.
g) Be polite. Have a nice day.
30/05/26
symmetra anran fika Brigitte Reinhardt+/+-lució/junie
The speedster dream zshake
Knicks versus OKC in six ;)
I think it'll be 5 games, tops, not 7.
27/05/26
Finished watching the Amazon movie
that was premiering on amazon prime.
for this one, i refuse to use capitals. for now, i have managed to keep spellingly at bay.
there are too many apps.
ttyl,
xoxo
gossipy boy
25/05/26
Dir
Derecha; le George Brassens (Bras-Sein-Ince) qui joue à travers l'entremise de mon UnPlus 11 (okay translating brand names is starting to get old).
Oh.
Yeah.
SUCK it, monetizers.
Most ethical "blog" on the planet Muahahahahahahahahaha.
P.S. Have to cite Gemini (by Google) and some humans like Redditors and Charles Anunoby today for NBA reasons.
08/05/26
I want to not have been baitclicked
I still have not fixed the overwhelming HTML-based (I assume?) problem; the one that puts an enormous hurdle in front of an internaut user trying to comment on any one of my posts. Of course, more traffic to "my" website would probably solve it, but I miss hearing from my readeries, as I used to call you, so I delay in trying anything.
It gets ronery in here; just like it started; as the mreowr of the old decaying cat I cat-sit echoes through the empty main floor I still blog from.
I think my writing style took a hit; time to find it again.
And so the cherry on the bottom is I have to clean up after the cat now. Usually I let its owner take care of it, but one must pitch in when the felines start meowing at the apes.
07/05/26
A wholly similar topic to yesterday
Yesterday's blog post title had to do with how comfortable I felt sharing my innermost thoughts to the general blogging realm, if not the internet. I didn't write much about that, choosing to freewrite down some spare thoughts instead.
I'm here now instead of queuing up for Overwatch again. I figure it's generally a better use of my time to blog than to spend another hour cloud gaming: I'll be a better writer that way.
I enjoy the writing in Overwatch more than ever, though. I mean, the writing other players do in this case, not the lore writing (which is great as well). In lieu of a proper offline social life, I find that I smile and chuckle often whilst playing this multiplayer game simply because of the sometimes outrageous banter that happens in match chat. Off the top of my head, things like "you absolute cucumber" (what an insult!) or "dps diff" (which is complicated to explain but very simplistically means one team's damage dealers significantly outperformed the other teams') are common and either make me smile or make me reflect on my own gameplay to improve. The toxicity has gone down, in my experience, because the AI filter seems to pick up pretty well on actual toxic messages, so it's fun to read people chat and participate, too.
At the very least, you'll find me saying gl;hf often in multiplayer games because I strongly believe that bringing in sportsmanship in competitive e-sports games is a great idea considering the general negativity and sometimes downright filthy language that can be found in lobbies. I know I always appreciate it when positive players on either team contribute to a positive social experience; it makes spending time online worth it (and improving my hand eye coordination) worth it, in my opinion.
Now to go queue without even bother revising my post: that's the speedy spirit, Gabriel.
06/05/26
How personal can I get?
A kaleidoughscope of musings.
I am wondering; I'm kinda high. I'm in queue for an Overwatch rig which I will then use to queue an Overwatch game on.
I don't mind disclosing that I'm stoned. Baked. Fried. Gelé. I am often; it's a residual habit I have from the pandemic, where I decided that I wasn't going to spend lockdown sober. I'm glad I did not; I have no regrets from the pandemic.
I have no regrets about the pandemic for now. No, that's not true. My only regret is not working harder to build a life with someone, like an SO.
Well, my rig queue is up; what I was thinking before I forget is that I can always claim that an AI wrote something I did if I somehow get into hot water with the blogging authorities, which has yet to happen.
I will say that I was recently unbanned from Overwatch. I was banned by the automated system, probably because I play on cloud gaming. I have been cloud gaming almost exclusively for almost a year now.
On that note, I did recently restart my Nintendo Switch, and it still works.
I still love video games.
All is well in the world.
29/04/26
26/04/26
21/04/26
20/04/26
A simple writ of the 420 day
It gets more and more complicated as I write these words.
It's been a tiring day; I cried a bit because I can.
It's nice having only a couple cultivars on hand, even though I so badly want to walk to the local store and buy more.
Why do I have to pay money for you, MJ?
19/04/26
13/04/26
What I am dueling:
07/04/26
Mega-sign of Ontario
06/04/26
Players who don't switch heroes
Players who don't switch in Overwatch when they have the brain cells and the capacity to really get to me me sometimes.
Take, for example, ult-charge-%-collectors, like this Lucio I just played with. Spent all game telling my team they had their ult here and there, but it did fuck all and we lost best 2 out of 3 anyway (because ULT CHARGE DOES NOT CARRY OVER ON CONTROL).
What I'm getting at is a basic, common mistake in Overwatch: saving your ultimate for the right moment. Generally, that makes sense, you want to use a strong, powerful ability at the right time otherwise it feels like -you- wasted your time.
But too often, my games end with either me at 99% ult charge, which can't really be helped, and 1-2 of my teammates who have theirs but chose to "save it" for the next failed teamfight anyway. Rinse and repeat.
This is frustrating, especially when the game throws me into the tank role which comes with the additional burden of having to be near the objective otherwise total anarchy reigns and the game becomes wholly unfun and boring.
Why not switch to a different hero instead of letting your ult charge gather dust in an ACTION-BASED TEAM-ORIENTED FPS, team?!
A question that I'll probably never get an answer to, as usual, except for a mute & a ban from Blizzard for daring to communicate with their precious player consumer base.
Also, fk turrets. I fking hate them. Torb's. Symm's. Ball's. Even Larry the Cable Girl's pylon is starting to get on my nerves sometimes, and she is my favourite design... until Anran released. I LIKE ZOOMING AROUND BECAUSE IT LESSENS THE CHANCE I NEED TO RELY ON NON-EXISTENT HEALS!
I shudder to think what five additional heroes will do to the game landscape, but at least I don't have to keep calling it Overwatch TWO like I did for so many years. It's just Classic now if I play 6vs6, and in 5vs5, well, at least the queue times are low.
One more fact, I think; I preferred this game when I mostly played it on my Nintendo Switch WITH gyro support. Mouse and Keyboard is fun in the moment, but the feelings of working as a team are few and far in-between.
Anyway; catch me not switch off Anran, Domina, and Zen for the next little while.
I say this, but we all know I'm going to switch to what -feels right- and trigger my whole team for daring to switch to a non-meta hero anyway.
-Gabe the loneangry Gamer
04/04/26
03/04/26
Smol list of games that still interest me
-Overwatch Classic
-Path of Exile: Mirage edition
-Genshin Impact
-Dead Cells
something I ate & made this week:
Overworked swine we all are.
02/04/26
List of exhaustive AI that is not exhaustive
31/03/26
30/03/26
A competitive game of Overwatch Classic
29/03/26
Hour one+ of Overwatch Classic
--1--
On Dorado, I lost as a Mercy. I don't remember if it was attack or defense.
On New Junk City, I won as Brigitte and Lifeweaver and another one I forget. I like this game mode now.
On Colosseo, I lost as Mercy and Brigitte. I hate Colosseo, usually, but I voted yea on this map for once and the loss did not sting as much.
On King's Row, I massacred as Zenyatta and won as Brigitte, defence. King's Row is the oldest map in the game currently.
--2--
On Oasis, I won as Ana. I think.
On Esperança, I lost as Mercy and Kiriko and Lifeweaver and Illari, not exactly in that order, and I'm not sure I remember playing Mercy. In fact, I think I forget which map before this one again.
On Ilios, I won 2-0 as Ana and then as Fika, the Jetpack Cat.
On Nepal, I lost 0-2 as Ana, Fika, and Zenyatta.
On Circuit Royal, I lost 3rd point attack (still QP) on Ana and Luciò.
--3--
On Eichenwalde, I landed my ult on a Freya on Eichenwalde on MH as Tracer and I won the game as Reaper with 49% ult charge with at least 1:30 left on the map, because my Mauga play carried me through the majority of the outdoor section.
On Aatlis, I lost as Hazard and Ashe and I even had my B.O.B. when I died. The problem was I made it too obvious I was building my ult charge, and I let myself be executed by a Tracer. I think we could have taken another point off the enemy team, but ultimately we lost 3-1 because I refuse to work with my team if they let me die even once. I should probably take their advice more seriously, but I play with so many different playstyles it's hard to justify changing mine for anything except a guaranteed win.
On Numbani, I won as Anran. I also got one ult off, as Anran.
On Junkertown, I lost as Echo and Fika on 3rd point attack.
On QP Lijiang Tower, I drew as Hazard and Reinhardt against the Domina, because my time to play ran out at 1-1 even though 2-0 was pretty much in the bag if I had more healing throughput to me, the primary tank.
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This concludes 3+1 hours of GeForce Nowering. I ragequit Genshin Impact in between because I was tired of clicking through the same endless daily quest in Sumeru with Nahida; however, I got 40 primogems out of my time and I got to cry in my bedroom for free right after so whatever.
27/03/26
26/03/26
Wouldn't miss a 26th
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Tell me what it feels like is playing again.
People suck at video games after they eat cereal in the mornings.
I went for a walk this morning, and there was a dog without a leash on again in the ravine.
I am so annoyed and irritable because people don't understand how to act in the neighbourhood.
You don't want to hear this because you're hearing it in your skull, but I still know how to write a complete sentence with or without a clause and everything. Clause.
25/03/26
24/03/26
23/03/26
wtf is Sorbitol
WTF is Sorbitol?
If I didn't have access (and I don't) to a dictionary or one of those lexicons, I'd look it up, but I would be bored along the way.
So my best guess is that sorbitol is a major binding agent for Vitamin C.
The end of the blog post for today.
22/03/26
17/03/26
11/03/26
Freewrite the Cobaltica
Thursday, November 13, 2025
Phoque you, Amazon. Phoque you, Capitalism.
*The sound of a co-opted Jingle Idiocratic Bells AMZN commercial blades through my eBayed camera phone as I try to blog whilst struggling against the T9 autocorrect grammarlyified writer's place I still call my own*How's THAT for some context, fellow blogspotters (and Reddit blogwriters, let's not kid ourselves).Now for a strictly (lol not at all) cons list of what, for example, Amazon Web & non-web services permits and encourages, explicitly:
09/03/26
Freewrite the aquamarine
08/03/26
06/03/26
no, I don't have anybfriends
02/03/26
28/02/26
20/02/26
A replacement of sorts
05/02/26
Why did it take 9 years....?
03/02/26
28/01/26
The Truth of the Interphonenet
24/01/26
The Lie of the Internetoile
18/01/26
15/01/26
One upgrade or not to update
09/01/26
Strait Up
