Angoisse & vulnerability

 Je ne sais pas pourquoi c’est si dur la vie présentement. J’espère que quelque chose vas débloquer avec moi, cette angoisse mélangé à un manque de connections.

I want to participate in a full life; not just be a passive consumer of the endless content in the digital age.

I’m in a reactive, vulnerable place. I’m filled with anxieties (angoisse) of a physical nature, I can feel it in my chest and near my throat. It’s like I’m treading water , and the water is all the responsibilities that I push aside not knowing that I can accomplish them. Is it a focus or concentration issue? Is it that a state of overwhelm makes it difficult to find a path to healing and being happy with who I am? I know I can get better. 

I must tell myself that things will get better. The human spirit is strong. I have the will to get better.

On a much lighter note, I helped a family member prepare some of the thanksgiving fixings today, like butternut squash soup and a tiny bit with the cranberry sauce. They worked hard, I think it’s important to be thankful at least!

A brief continuation on anxiety

 Yesterday’s topic, essentially.

Yeah, the anxiety sucks, but I have meditation to help me feel comfortable and especially more at ease with myself. And I learned that it’s important to not feel like I need to push away uncomfortable feelings like anxiety, to accept and recognize what parts of my body really feel that anxiety.

So I get out of bed every day, and I live my daily life, and usually most days I don’t worry too much about what I should be doing. Yet that has changed lately, where I find myself pacing throughout the day, because sitting down makes me feel jittery. I feel like sometimes I overthink my worries about the future too much.

Well, I will be doing fitness classes again, movement will help me calm my nerves. I’m going to a class today, soon, so I’ll end my daily post now. Thanks for reading.