Monday 16 October 2023

Break a fast

I've eaten every day for a long while now. I haven't been sick much lately, but even when I was sick, I also remember eating that day, so I can't say I've taken much of a break from eating in a long time.

Today, and tomorrow, and the day after will probably not be exceptions. Right now, my breakfast is a simple hard-boiled eggs and some hot pepper olives. I don't have much of an appetite early on in the day, so most of my weight gain comes from when I eat after dark.

It's hard to change the habit of eating most of my calories later in the day, for numerous reasons that I won't go into.

At least I'm cognizant of my dietary habits. I have been for some time now. And yet, I still make the mistake of consuming 1. way too many calories overall and 2. the wrong kind of calories. If all I ate for a while were some fatty olives and some protein-packed hard-boiled eggs, I would definitely lose weight. But I would struggle. Because I'm so used to variety. Because carbs are addictive. Because the ease of reaching for something high in sugar overwhelms my rational desire to be fit.

I take pleasure in cooking things from scratch. I don't do it enough, but there's a solid foundation there.

I have hope that I will build on this foundation in a meaningful way, so that I can finally move on from struggling with my food picks.