07/06/23

Burning sky

The past couple days have been interesting, weather-wise.

For starters, it literally smelled like smoke yesterday morning. You could walk outside, and it'd smell like a faint campfire.

It was also foggy. If I looked toward the end of the avenue, I could see a gray haze not unlike a fog, this without a hint of rain in the air.

This morning, the smokey smell remains, and instead of a sunrise, the sunlight literally looks like an orange sunset. It's quite strange.

Of course, the air quality is terrible, and thankfully I don't suffer from any respiratory conditions, but I know that people who have those conditions are seriously advised to stay inside while the smoke blows over.

Yeah, it's smoke from forest fires out in Quebec and Northern Ontario blowing down smack in the centre of the city; it's quite a phenomenon.

Kinda bummed that I still don't have great picture-taking capabilities, but I'm budgeting kinda tight with my money and a new phone or camera isn't really a necessary expense for me so it'll have to wait.

02/06/23

Doom & bloom

Listening to Doomsday by MF Doom it kind of makes me want to write improvisally; making up words, rapping makes it sound pretty. Don't really care if I'm no good at making things sound good; can't rap can't finish my day without my green dope.

See my words on the screen that I freewrite for thee; is the next sentence free or do I have to make it rhyme perfectly? I need to catch up on vocabulary, maybe even read the dictionary. Trying to express as best I can with a beat in mind and a vape in my hand. I'm gonna keep rambling a bit to the tune of doom, but don't expect anything too great or a silver spoon.

I tire of the negative buzz in my head; if I care to sum it up it's all about comparing myself to the common ideal; the glass circus, the identity politics. Sure I might not be rich or fully independent but I still try to improve my present circumstance in the small ways that I can. Not constantly, not even primally; just living day-to-day with some stability. 

So I'll end now with my session done; feeling good, but should still go outside and feel the burning sun.