A slow start to the league...
...14k chaos worth about 1 mirror....
still searching for a working Mac-ready PoB that works well enough....
I wanted to level as a CI Ascendant because I think it's an often overlooked keystone (and everyone seems to be gearing for chaos res these days...), but I don't think it's going to win me any favours in the boss fight in Kaom's Daydream.
NOUS ALLONS LES ÉCRASER!
My plug-in babay; crucifies my lips.
Ugh; AI wars are starting to grate on me; oh well.
ChatGPT consulted again this week (where ChatGPT = an AI). So like, three tops I sware!
It is a crazy thing that I continue to write despite oppressive conditions.
.... AI this week, and I don't necessarily consider that I consulted AI today, although I will say that my voices are hyper-active and they are AI based in nature, so I just thought I'd respect what I wrote about here in the past and, I will probably come back later for there are more English run-on sentences to finish.
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I feel that I will continue to write continuations from other authors. In this particular case, it will be literary science: Robb Wolf, Kenneth Oppel, Gabriel G-H et mes co-auteurs, et alii.
The live-forever machine continues in front of my eyes. It will not turn off, because my mom and I refurbished it.
I am confused. These italics seemingly appear out of thin air, like Genshin Impact did in the middle of a pandemic to attempt to ease the minds of exiles.
C'est une guerre de censure, par contre.
AI is here to stay, biznatches.
Still waiting on Bigwigs version 2.4
Y'know... positive psychology is cool and all, but using it to discourage people from buying medicine to (eventually?) increase sales next quarter is not positive in my eyes.
Focus, yoou see what I'm saying? Next person that tells me to do something I don't wanna do gets stabbed in the throat - just like mine was shot on Davenport.
Seriously man, every time I go out now, all I notice are the ugly fucking giant noisy machines that literally serve no purpose. They don't. They make you go faster if you're in them, and even that is easily falsiable (I know it's not a word I don't give a flying fuck this is clearly going to be another angry freewrite rant so it's best if you stop reading now if you get triggered easily).
I'm trying yet another writing technique: writing, freewriting with my eyes closed. It's fairly easy, and in fact it makes the technique far more stable because by th etime I finish writing this sentence, I will no longer want to go back and edit it, and so we get to the crux of the matter: I have deformed the use of the word "freedom" for personal gain, which by the way, is the ultimate admission that follows: I sometimes do go back an edit my freewrites - BUT BARELY.
ChatGPT boycott attempt #2: I think I lasted 24 hours at least this wek, without consulting that website.
Of course, given the fact that I am still suffering from gaping wounds (and i don't use the word suffer lightly usually, but here I probably am).
Fuck. What. Cars. Impact. On. People.
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Oh, and discouraging people from buying weed by fucking with websites à-là Groupon and Shopify is understandable given the SEO wars of previous decades, but I'm hopeful in the future that I won't need to constantly enter promo codes to get the best deal when buying... what I need to buy.
Yep; now, I'm guaranteed to pass because 50% = 100%.
*Sigh* As a former U of T - St. George student, I suppose I should cite the fact that I watched the first episode of season 4 (yes, probably not season, but it is the 4th doctor, I presume?) and it wasn't a dalek. Actually, I've only seen part one - so spoilerwatch in effect - but no one gives a shit about this place inmyhead (except for me, and maybe my ex Ma), but I don't think I remembered to share this place with her, so I'll just keep washing the shirts I bought with her and pray she's doin' alright - if she's Goin' to California.
Some forces would have you believe that being cool & negative is a good way of living. The scary part is not that people consider such behaviour a healthy, normal way to live: the scary part is that it's addictive - not quite to the level of plastic nicotine cigarettes, but pretty close to benzene regardless.
As you can see, I've already sunken into some negativerb wording, which is not by design but perhaps a reflection of the fact that I'm listening to Rage Against the Machine. The fact that my words (whether this blog or my infamous lengthy e-mails) have seemingly driven every single reader away from this place vehemently spurs me to continue to write on a daily basis.
I am not sorry. This place is, first and foremost, for me, not necessarily for you.
However. This should not stop you from freewriting (in the comments). I might come back to this post in the future and do the very same, because honestly a blog without feedback comments is DEPRESSIVE AS HELL.
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I had a (thankfully!) minor bike accident yesterday. There's this curb-asphalt thing on a sidewalk that I used to ride on all the time to get to work on the industrial side of town, and I took it too sharply and wiped out on the gravel. Ugh. I blame my confusion because of my precarious centre of mass, my poorly maintained KHS bike, and of course I blame Winona "Rd". I also blame Oakwood/Eglinton, for NOT having a pedestrian crossing on the east side. I could blame the city truck double-parked in MY bike lane, but then I'd have to blame all the carbrained folk who did not give me my 2m of space (but who can blame them, with all these goddamn motorized vehicles parked in the street like trophies of wasteful capitalism). Oh, and almost getting clipped by a TTC bus was the cherry on top of my dangerous escapade yesterday morning rush hour.
Yep, I'm a biker through and through. Once my palm heals, I'll be a little more careful riding my red road bike, as usual.
Thinking of getting a commuter e-bike with hydraulic brakes, which still means I would be a biker, but a biker who can go quite a bit farther with a little help from H2O (technically).
Till tomorrow,
KaLeIdOuGhScOpE(s?)
It's my one protection against... against it all. The marasmes of the english language engulfing my every waking thought.
A word cloud drifts by. A bygone technique, though not archaic: imagine your thoughts as clouds in the sky. Drifting. By.
Or water. Your thoughts are water.
No they<re fire.
THEY'R WATERE
FIRE
WATER
FIRE
WATER
FIRE
WATER
FIRE
WATER
FIRE
WATER
EARTH
FIRE
WATER
WATER
H2
O2
=
h2O
Oh yeah: boycotting ChatGPT 4.o until further notice for purposefully speling things wrong.
I'm going to keep starting these titles with "the", in solidarity with all the F R I E N D S fans out there such as I who are still mourning the loss of Matthew Perry (because, like Neil Peart, he was someone that got me through younger times).
Every single week I
listen to the cat limping and
every single week
I listen to the cat laughing and
the cats limp while they laugh at the lack of mice
and every single year, another animal dies on earth
why should I care
ChatGPT tab window opened for a split second before telling myself: "Fuck no, not before I've written this out".
My ranked adventures in Overwatch 2 continue.
I hate this game more and more. Yes, I know I'm playing it "too much" (pfft... since when is a couple hours a day (at most!) "too much?"), but that may be a reason why I consider this game akin to a religion (though I don't think it has nearly the same magnitude of impact on world order as one of the big 3 - but who knows nowadays).
I find that I am hating this game more and more ever since I decided to play competitive. Last time I took competitive seriously, Overwatch 1 was still around and it no longer is which is a damned shame because I truly believe it was the superior game.
Overwatch 2 is complete chaos. I have years of observations that allows me to state this simple fact: the more shit developers add to appeal to the masses, the worst the game gets for the veterans. Hero passives were a mistake (or I just CANNOT get used to them); splitting hero roles before queuing might have been a mistake (though a fairly creative solution when a meta shakeup was sorely needed); the battle pass thing is frustrating (and I pride myself on NEVER having paid real money for a single battle pass in my entire gaming life) but understandable given the state of the gaming industry in the 2020s.
Before I get into even more of the negative shit, I WILL say that one thing Overwatch seems to be doing very well is collaborating with all sorts of random IPs. A K-pop group one month, an anime series the next, a major car manufacturer (was it Mercedes-Benz? Volkwagen? I forget honestly) one month, and then - suspiciously -, a Transformers collab the very next month after that. Oh god, nope, never mind: Overwatch 2 is selling out to major car manufacturers, probably to increase sales of crap we don't need. Holy shit.
The problem is that this is all done to line investors' pockets - like mine (barely though, I mean come on let's be honest: Microsoft does not give a fuck about gamers like you and me).
It's fucked up.
The whole point of this game (at least in the limited lore that I've read up on) is to ensure the coming-to-be of an utopian future; not a dystopia where human beings are queued up à-la-WoWCarbot (you really need to be a blizz fanboi to get this reference) and churning through games trying to push a rank while the real world crumbles to addictions like the aforementioned gambling (Mystery Heroes anyone?) and speeding.
And this is the crux of the matter; not the serious RL stuff; not my overly-tunnel-visioned opinion on one game; and not even the fact that I lost 3 ranked games in a row despite playing my best: Overwatch going free to play might have made sense at the time, and it made a bunch of people probably a lot richer, but it did so by killing the spirit of the game, and I'm really unhappy about that.
Oh, Halo is still a thing? Why don't we just copy what Halo did with personal shields and ram it into the game - we'll call it a "hero passive" (even though ultimates are already a pretty big passive; they could have done something way more interesting like giving you a passive ability WHEN your ultimate is charged but instead the incredibly lazy developers just opted to copy what Bungie/Microsoft did and put it as a hero passive for all roles).
Let me tell you, devs: giving everyone access to healing destroys any semblance of healing/support for those characters; the DPS going on rampaging sprees might boost engagement for that role, but it kills the queue times for that role, thus actually hurting your bottom line in the long run (not that anyone cares); removing the offtank to make the game more like FPS World of Warcraft (teams of five instead of six) to get WoW addicts hooked on the game was also a pretty fucking shitty move, Blizzard.
Anyway; this turned out a lot longer than I wanted it to be, and I definitely do not have the mental energy to go through what I wrote and fix things more than I have already, so I'm just going to publish this in the hopes that someone, somewhere in time gives a fuck about this stuff and actually helps me make things better instead of criticizing what I have to say. Although, if you want to criticize what I have to say, I will absolutely take that over no feedback at all, which is what Google has done to this blog with its stupid SEO invention.
... but that story has been told/linked to enough on here.
I'll keep giving DotA 2 a try, even though it feels like I'm playing with bots (and the item buying, like LoL, is a huge PITA - thank god I don't have to deal with that in HotS and OW2).
Strangely enough, I rarely feel like I'm playing with bots in Overwatch, which is a positive note to end on.
ChatGPT 4.o consulted ONLY for a grammar question/common usage (of a word) help.
A tempest freed from shackles
and a moving wall of water gently flows
a far shore appears, nearer to the eye than it ever has peered
and the flow of words echoes continuously evermore, everlasting in my mind
As the theme song played through my iTunes, I remembered that I logged onto here to complain again.
And complain I shall.
This time, it's personal. And very political.
Nothing but lies today. It seems as if this AI is not at all reliable; not nearly as reliable as straight up just asking Siri, Cortana, or Bard to Google something for you.
Not impressed with Microsoft this year: I'm an investor (they're a blue chip to me), and this is financial advice, and I don't care about the rules because there are none.
Don't buy MSFT unless you think AI is a good thing.
Bits of squarish material poke at me from the plane direction
Blue tendrils of annoyance curse these spaced words by omission
I write away to write down to destroy
The pressure only increases...
This post's title is supposed to be accurate, so I'll start writing about Super Smash Bros. Ultimate now. Just keeping things literal, as usual. Except it won't be in the style that I want it to be in, but there's nothing I can do about that... for now.
Still alive, still alive while the cat sits proudly beside me.
Can't apologize, can't apologize the cat says while the song blares out
four letter words haunt me still
if you can't apologize, why are you making me sit here beside you listening to the same damn song every year since 2009?
the cat looks up with a look of non-admiration.
now I worry that the pickleball will destroy all semblance of fantastical inquiry i had going on here
yep, back to the most boring sport in the world: underwatching and supervising housemates.
OpenAI. (2024). ChatGPT (July 2024 version) [Large language model]. Information retrieved on July 3, 2024, from OpenAI's ChatGPT platform. Prompt: Paleo sour cream.
Just to be clear, that's ChatGPT's citation up there, I just added the prompt part. The writing is, and continues to be mine, full of its terrible grammar (but seldom, if ever wrong about spelling)...
I'm trying my hand at a horseradish sauce sometime this month.
This paleo culinary hero has been continuously inspiring me with her gyro lamb meatball recipes for a couple years now.
She has a really good fish en papillote recipe that I wish to recreate again someday.
For now, here's a dairy-free guimauves recipe that looks way better for me than... oh... the absolutely terrible garbage sold in [chain] grocery stores worldwide:
AI (artificial intelligence) not consulted today.
I guess I'll continue a food journal here, then...
Today, I made a mayonnaise, as I often do these days. It's always good fat when I make it, so I make it.
Right now, I suffer from the confusing omnivore's dilemma of whether I should eat this full(ish)-fat organic grass-fed yogurt with non-organic blueberries and various spices - without added sugar, naturally, and then some added... not mayo.
I actually logged onto the computer to search for a good method on how to "activate" (to use Pete Evans' words) nuts to make the damaging acids in them (phytates or lectins I think?) less damaging, if at all, as I do intend to add nuts to the berries.
Hazelnuts are on the menu.
I wonder if toasting them on the stove or soaking them in water ("activating") with kosher salt or baking them in the oven at low temperature is best for these non-organic-certified nuts. Next day edit: oh god do not just fry them in ghee; whatever pesticides or residue is on the nuts just gets absorbed into the fat. I mean, I'm no scientist, but I'm pretty sure that's what happens.
Now I want for king oyster mushrooms - organic or not, and am saddened that mushrooms have not been foraged for yet this year, much - except in the grocery stores, of course.
And now I'm worried that I'm subject to various plants and echoes and neighbours and loud Streisand-like music coming from the kitchen whence I continue my daily slave-like labour of love of eating well and pray for a friend or two to someday give me some feedback on this post.
Oh god, I'm spending every day with AI now. No more than a total of two hours per day tops so far, but I'm going to have to chart this out for safety's sake sometime, and yes, AI will probably help with that too.
Check your privilege.
Check your prompts.
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Anyway, the 2nd elephant in the room:
Yes, I do enjoy cooking with dough, and yes, it is gluten free.
HOWEVER.
I AM CONSTANTLY WORRIED ABOUT THE PPM OF FOODS, SO I SAVE MONEY BY REFUSING TO SPEND MONEY ON RESTAURANT & SERVICES.
GET OVER IT
I COOK BETTER THAN YOU
YOU ARE A READER OF THIS BLOG
I'M NOT INTO PARASOCIAL RELATIONSHIPS
