Drug of choice

I am a stupid, stupid boy.

I don't drink coffee, and I try to avoid caffeine things.

But you know what I did today?

Four cups, I just had four cups.

You know why? I was scared.

This self-induced "tripping-out" that's happening to me is to take my mind off all the drama that's happening in this house right now.

I know it's stupid, it actually aggravates the problem usually, I still took the coffee.

I can't stop shaking now, I anticipate hyperventilating soon.

I always have caffeine on the worst nights.

I can't stop myself.

Caffeine's a hell of a drug.