18/07/24

Negative, negatively charging up

The struggle to remain positive continues.

Some forces would have you believe that being cool & negative is a good way of living. The scary part is not that people consider such behaviour a healthy, normal way to live: the scary part is that it's addictive - not quite to the level of plastic nicotine cigarettes, but pretty close to benzene regardless.

As you can see, I've already sunken into some negativerb wording, which is not by design but perhaps a reflection of the fact that I'm listening to Rage Against the Machine. The fact that my words (whether this blog or my infamous lengthy e-mails) have seemingly driven every single reader away from this place vehemently spurs me to continue to write on a daily basis.

I am not sorry. This place is, first and foremost, for me, not necessarily for you.

However. This should not stop you from freewriting (in the comments). I might come back to this post in the future and do the very same, because honestly a blog without feedback comments is DEPRESSIVE AS HELL.

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I had a (thankfully!) minor bike accident yesterday. There's this curb-asphalt thing on a sidewalk that I used to ride on all the time to get to work on the industrial side of town, and I took it too sharply and wiped out on the gravel. Ugh. I blame my confusion because of my precarious centre of mass, my poorly maintained KHS bike, and of course I blame Winona "Rd". I also blame Oakwood/Eglinton, for NOT having a pedestrian crossing on the east side. I could blame the city truck double-parked in MY bike lane, but then I'd have to blame all the carbrained folk who did not give me my 2m of space (but who can blame them, with all these goddamn motorized vehicles parked in the street like trophies of wasteful capitalism). Oh, and almost getting clipped by a TTC bus was the cherry on top of my dangerous escapade yesterday morning rush hour.

Yep, I'm a biker through and through. Once my palm heals, I'll be a little more careful riding my red road bike, as usual.

Thinking of getting a commuter e-bike with hydraulic brakes, which still means I would be a biker, but a biker who can go quite a bit farther with a little help from H2O (technically).

Till tomorrow,

KaLeIdOuGhScOpE(s?)

17/07/24

When I cry I don't eat

 It's my one protection against... against it all. The marasmes of the english language engulfing my every waking thought.

A word cloud drifts by. A bygone technique, though not archaic: imagine your thoughts as clouds in the sky. Drifting. By.

Or water. Your thoughts are water.

No they<re fire.

THEY'R WATERE

FIRE

WATER

FIRE

WATER

FIRE

WATER

FIRE

WATER

FIRE

WATER

EARTH

FIRE

WATER

WATER

H2

O2

=

h2O

Oh yeah: boycotting ChatGPT 4.o until further notice for purposefully speling things wrong.


15/07/24

The unfairness of it all

I'm going to keep starting these titles with "the", in solidarity with all the F R I E N D S fans out there such as I who are still mourning the loss of Matthew Perry (because, like Neil Peart, he was someone that got me through younger times).

14/07/24

The limping cat

 Every single week I

listen to the cat limping and

every single week

I listen to the cat laughing and

the cats limp while they laugh at the lack of mice

and every single year, another animal dies on earth

why should I care